I'll wait for you

 

I’LL WAIT FOR YOU

 

So I’m not your type and I’m not blind

That I’m the last person to be with ever on your mind

And with all the torture of mistrust that love has put you through

To never find love again in anyone, I don’t blame you

 

But your faith in God is radical, I see more than your words.

When you talk God allows me to see them as stars, flowers, and birds.

So even if you never understand how connected I am to your heart

I pray that in spirit we can worship in the beauty of God’s art

 

For God is wonderful, amazing, inspiring, and brand new

And if we had never met, we both believe that to be true

So please believe me when I say that someday

That I would hold your glass heart in the most beautiful way

 

And when the day finally comes with pride I will rise

Tears down my eyes waiting for you to come by my side

And when you finally do our hearts we will send

to present to our Lord and Savior, the I-we-him

 

……..But of course that just a vision of what we could come to

And if your not ready, it ok………….(I’ll wait for you)

Just so you know

 

I’ve learned from the past the lessons of old

That may seem warm at first but leave you in the cold.

So understand the weight on my feet

That stands on loyalty and unwavering not to cheat.

 

I can understand your past, so I know why you ask.

Vulnerable to the unfaithful who before me wore a mask.

And if at times I seem suspicious, kiss me and you’ll see

That my heart belongs to you and yours belongs to me.

 

The future is uncertain though so please forgive me for future sin

Doesn’t have to be infidelity for the devil to find his way in.

Just know my queen that your counsel makes me a better man.

And your value as my wife is greater than any land.

 

Ease your mind for now for there is nothing to fear.

No secret you don’t know, no problem you won’t hear.

And if your still uncertain just wait and see

When I promise you again every anniversary.

Missing you

MISSING YOU

 

I hope you didn’t leave this world hating me

Because you left this world with me loving you

And though we never saw eye to eye, the one thing we could see

That raising our children together we could do

 

I never pictured them without their mother

Wondering the effects that would make them change

A daughter alone with two brothers

A son’s love out of range

 

Hearing stories of you from them

Making me laugh and then make me cry

Because they remind me so much of who you had been

And then reminded me that you left to the sky

 

I just wished I had more time

Where we could have moved on to being friends

Advising each other what was best for us

And staying connected until the very end.

 

Had to get this out my mind

And I hope you are seeing this too

Until I see you again I will find

Everything that has me missing you

SHOULDN'T

I shouldn’t have to have this talk

I shouldn’t have to tell my daughter or son that one day a man who is supposed to protect you

Hold himself high in power and therefore should have control of the situation

Could one day ruin your life and very possibly end you.

I shouldn’t have to have this talk

I shouldn’t have to have this fear

That one day you won’t come home like your suppose to

Not because you were robbed or committed a crime

But because you questioned authority one time

One time and the last time

I shouldn’t have to have this conflict

Because I wear the very badge and race I fear

Hoping that I can make things better while wondering if its hopeless

Knowing that black and blue is treated differently

And though I wear both colors boldly I also wear it unequally

You shouldn’t have to know

That you anger could get you killed

Your childish mistakes could get you killed

You unarmed non-compliance could get you killed

Running could get you killed

Bad mouthing could get you killed

Your race (could kill you) could get you killed

 AND I SHOULDN’T HAVE TO LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE MY 8-YEAR-OLD CHILD HEARS THIS BUT………… “Sweetheart we need to have a talk”

ALL AND ALL

When she died I found comfort in your arms

As you became the sand for my ocean of tears

And I know it couldn’t be easy to see me cry for another women

But you knew I held my children pain and fears

Strangers introduced themselves in a home that didn’t expect them

And gave us all their worries and concerns

And there were some who went from strangers to judges

Never stopped being a father they had to learn

With my children you become the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen

Your heart transformed into a sparkling gem

And I watch how you took your support and love for me

And placed it inside of each one of them.

And I couldn’t ask for anything more

Than for us to grow more after this fall

 I watched you become the love of my life

My eternal all and all.

Relationship Evolution (Part 1)

We have gotten to a familiar place you and I

Where most relationships fall and die

Because they put themselves on a pedestal of love that they adjust

Not realizing they fail each other by the expectation of their trust

I don’t want that for us so I’d like to give a try

To someone who loves us both. To someone who would never lie

To someone who can lead us and take us off our plinths

And never will fail us taking us to greater heights and lengths

I want to be like him every day by and by

To die every day to live. To live every day to die

Now I don’t worry if we are going to make it because it’s not in our hands

Let’s leave it all to Jesus, the orchestrator of our plans.