I don’t want to hear that

 In the split second that I lose my mind

I play the things I didn’t want to hear in time

The things that built me and the things that broke

I didn’t want to hear at all and in that moment it spoke

I don’t want to hear about Bills!!!!

I don’t want to hear about how I was raised

Because for a man to be a man

He has to live with the mistakes he made

I don’t want to hear your discontent.

I’m working towards the man I want to be

Trying to live my expectations of you and everyone around me

And loving you is the only thing worth this reality

So please…….not tonight

I don’t want to hear you cry

For every year that you grow

I see the walls you will hit

Some will break you and some will kill you.

And if you survive it will kill your kindness

Cause you will actually find out the world you’re born into

So I train and protect you or I run to protect you

Because it’s clear to see

that either way I decide, you don’t want to be me

And my tears shed in anger as I watch you hit each wall

Sitting here like “Damn they are me after all.”

And last but not least

I don’t want to go to work or hustle

But I’m a working man and I hustle hard. 

And I don’t want to hear that. 

Forget about God

 The church was packed full of saved souls

Praising his holy name gloriously to the sky

But it began to stop when the congregation realized

That the pastor was standing on the the pulpit being high

The pastor looks in the eyes of the congregation 

Saw the judgement, displeasement, and pity and said “that’s odd”

How did the sin I just commit on my own

Make you forget about God”

Some began to walk out refusing to hear what came from his mouth

Other stayed simply out of pity and curiosity 

The pastor began to speak again and said “that odd.

How did the sin that I just commit on my own

Make you forget about God!”

The pity began to walk slowly out shaking their heads

But the curious was excited for what came next

The pastor spoke louder and said “THAT’S ODD!

HOW DID THE SIN I JUST COMMIT ON MY OWN

MAKE YOU FORGET ABOUT GOD!!!!!

The curious began to be bored by the sermon

And soon the church was empty and began to shut down

The pastor began to praise his holy name and whispered “that’s odd

How did the one sin I just commit on my own

Make them forget about you oh God!

Man of the house

 You think we don’t worry

You think we don’t mind

You think we don’t see

You think we stay blind

 

But a true man sees all.

And tries his best to fix.

Everything while at the same time,

Trying to be in the mix.

 

Providing for his family by working long.

Finding time to spend with wife and kid

Actions challenged by people on the outside

Either by what he hasn’t done or what he did.

 

You see ladies we take it all

And that not to say that you don’t take the lick

It just the stress that we deal with

Is why video games are our side chicks. 

 

We just want everyone happy.

From ourselves, to the kids, to the spouse.

To end the day with purpose.

To be the man of the house. 

Sorry for your lost

 

SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS

 

When I lost my brother it felt so unreal

My heart broken and melted, yet strong as steel

Angry at everyone with every and no reason at all to be cross

When someone approaches you and says “Sorry for your loss”

 

It’s always the people who never really knew you

And yet there to extend a hand

The people who walk pass you

That say they understand

 

And the ones that cared before

When you see them, you cry

Because they remind to your core

Of the person you had to say goodbye

 

But it’s never really goodbye is it?

The memories always stay

Hold it in your heart

That you’ll see them someday

 

Let your tears fall till they can’t anymore

And then make them proud by living life like a boss

Weather I know you or not is irrelevant

But still I’m so sorry for your loss

FREEZE

 Why does the world not want us to be together

 Maybe we make a imbalance in space and time

Because it seems like everything freezes, even the weather

When our bodies touch and entwine

The Earth stopped spinning around the sun

Just so the sun can stare at us from above

And every light and every clocked stopped its run

Just to spark the fire of our love

Now I'm dead from being shot from a cop

And I know it fills you with much pain

But it because of you baby why I didn't stop

Baby please let me explain.

They told me to freeze and didn't know what to do

Because I didn't know how to freeze..... without touching you

So I ran towards your love with everything that I got

And in the process.......I got shot.

Now everything that was once frozen are starting to move again

Every light and clock like it never knew what happened

While I'm starting down from heaven asking the Lord please

If I could come down one more time and make the world freeze. 

The letter of well done

The concerns for your child are everlasting. 

 No matter what your child do or say.

And endless are the hope, prayers, and fasting.

To clear your mind to know they are ok.

You tell me constantly to read his word.

When in truth you know that I'm not.

And your greatest worry is those precious little grand birds.

But I assure you mom I haven't forgot.

Because my daughter know to be angry but do not sin (Ephesians 4:26)

My son know to give unto wrath (Roman 12:19) 

I pay my tithes and offerings understanding the principles within (Malachi 3:10)

In my house there are joys and laughs (Job 8:21)

Though it may not seem like it, the essentials are not idle.

God and his word still remains true.

I understand his teaching not just by going to church or reading the bible.

But growing up watching everyday life with you.

But the concerns for your child are everlasting. 

There is never a day where we think we have won.

So I pray this letter finds you in heaven after your passing.

God is everywhere in my life mom........WELL DONE!